So now that winter break is over and I am back in school,life is getting better. Being at home was good. I feel better.
NOW I’m back at school and new drama. There is a guy. My bff up here at school who i’ve always liked but we never dated. Once my (now ex) bf and i dated he came onto me.AND NOW we are kinda seeing each other! it’s kind of awesome. I like him and since we were friends first it makes the relationship better! Good thing he lives down here at school so my parents dont have to meet him cause i dont know how much THEY would like him but whatever. I LIKE HIM!
its not official.
idk if i can go back to the whore-ish ways….i tried. and got mono. is this God’s way of saying DON’T ?
Four turn offs.
lol i’ve listed these in previous posts SO as a recap, here is the shortened list.
1. Having my head pushed down when giving head
2. As a way of “dry humping” when a guy grinds his knee on my crotch
3. Ugly faces
4. Small dicks, that are used incorrectly.
Three turn ons
1. The right amount of foreplay
2. Guy’s who know what to do with the clit
3. It’s the guy…some people jsut have it some dont.
Six things you wish you’d never done.
HA! ironic…..
1. unprotected sex
2. the abortion
3.skip school
4.fuck around with losers
5.facebook stalk —> only causes trouble
6. stop playing the sport i love
Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1. God
2. My mom
3. My sister
4. My best friend.
…unfortunately there are only 4.
Eight ways to win your heart.
1. Tell me I’m pretty EVERY DAY. it makes a difference
2. Tell me you love me (<—only if you mean it) when I’m being insecure
3. put in the equal/greater amount of effort I do to our relationship
4. not want JUST sex… otherwise my girl-whore comes out
5. be good at sex! i’ve never been a fan of cuddling afterwards but when ive been forced to, its actually brought me closer to him
6. introduce me to your friends and family… include me in the rest of your life
7. HONESTY
8. be liked by my family.
Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. What is he doing?
2. What did I do wrong?
3. How long do I have to wait?
4. I can’t believe I did it.
5. I wish I didn’t do it.
6. How can I forgive myself.
7. I need to study.
One confession
What’s there not to confess? I’m pretty honest on this blog… i guess my confession is that I love my boyfriend, but I am SO unhapy with him. when we are together, it’s prefect. When we aren’t, my life is hell. More hell than it already is. and its heartbreaking.
Two smileys that describe your life right now.
:/
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